Happy New year everyone! Hope you all enjoyed the Christmas break. If you are not following me on snapchat (Snaps: obsessionsoffi), it might feel like I have been in hibernation for pretty much most of last year. Which when it comes to the blog… this may be slightly true. However after a really busy couple of months I want to make a conscious effort to start adding more content to the blog and check in with you all more. As this is what a lot of you have asked for on snapchat.
It has been a mental couple of months/ year in 2016. Changing jobs, moving out of our apartment to save for a house and then looking into the idea of and near beginning to build a modular home – which we then scrapped, moving in with the in-laws to save for our new home – which we still haven’t decided on, saving for two new cars, battling health issues and all while trying to do my best for Sophia, making time for Gary and our relationship, trying to do little things with the blog etc. It has been hectic to say the least but also such a learning curve.
I, Fiona Kenneally – am an over thinker. I have OCD tendencies and can sometimes get overwhelmed when it comes to striving for perfection.Which I have a habit of doing a LOT of the time. God that feels better. But this year I realised… through all of the stressing about getting the perfect instagramable house, carving out my career, trying to raise Sophia to be mannerly 100% of the time (which obviously isn’t achievable), obsessing over getting my IBS/ IBD under control, Spending time with Gary, Make memories as a family – I realised that life has a funny way of working out pretty much most of the time and as I always say, “Everything happens for a reason”. Unfortunately you cannot control everything. A lot of things – which you would think I would know by now, don’t always work out the way you want them to. And you know what that’s okay.
I have learned to let go a little and have become more relaxed. I have stopped obsessing over trivial things and having looked back I have realised life went on. I achieved a lot the past year, took a lot of chances somethings worked out, somethings maybe not so much but I am very happy. Sophia, Gary and I are perfectly healthy and all very happy and safe. I have realised that a lot of things throughout life you cannot control and likewise there is a lot that you can. Each year I have a list of goals.. sometimes I type them in my phone, some I add to my endless lists of items I want to get done, and some I keep to myself. This year I want to share them all with you.
Even though I am someone who would deal with anxiety on a daily basis I am obsessed with being positive, achieving goals, learning new things and exploring life. I wasted so many years when Alex, my son died. My early twenties when you should be exploring the world and life. Finding out about yourself and what you love. going out, meeting new people, pushing yourself and in all honesty I feel like it is only in the past few years that I have began to do that. I know I keep saying it but I am so grateful for what I have. When you reach rock bottom, realise you were so close to death and now look back at what you have achieved it is unbelievable to me. I am so proud. So this year I want to set new goals and achieve even more.
Home is where the heart is… And I think at this stage as long as I have my little family, our health and happiness I will live in a coal bunker. Okay, another slight exaggeration on my part. But this year is the year for our new home. Hallelujah!!! We are still undecided whether or not we will build or buy. It is such a hard decision and I really don’t know what is best for us as a family but what I do know is the process of that will be well under way this year. The most important thing is the past year we actually got the opportunity to save (woohoo) rather than just working to pay for rent, childcare and bills. I cannot tell you how excited I am about that! I cannot wait to have our own home, to think of all of the hard work will have been worth it I’m squealing like a piggy even typing this. Of course I will keep you all posted.. So watch this space!
The past year health wise has been an eye opener. I now have a much better understanding of what triggers my IBS/ IBD symptoms. This changes from time to time however there is a lot of factors that really are consistent. Sleep, Food, Exercise, Water, Stress and Medication are all things that I know I have to keep a close eye on and monitor all of the time in order for my digestive system to work and to prevent getting a flare up or chronic constipation. I want to be more proactive when it comes to my anxiety and stressing, Therefore I have decided to take up meditation before bed. I did try yoga last year but think I may have not been in the right frame of mind or not have found the right class for me so I am going to give this another shot too. I also know that for the moment I have to go back on my medication to regulate my bowel and digestive system. It was doing me more harm being off them and my number one priority is to avoid longterm health effects. It kills me having to fork out that much money but as they say your health is your wealth.
A combination of un prepared meals through not having our own kitchen, fridge or space to prepare/ cook these and having a really poor digestive system/ being sick and having a really low metabolism has meant that my weight has crept up. I don’t feel as confident as I did or comfortable in my clothes so I am going to go back to increasing my cardio and see if this helps and just watch my diet a little bit closely. Nothing too extreme. I workout between 3-5 times a week. I am still going to do my three weight based personal training sessions at Educogym as these are fantastic for strength and toning etc but I will be running or else spinning 3 times a week also for just 30-45 mins each session.
I have also decided I am going to run a half marathon. I have done the mini marathon a few times before raising money for charities in memory of Alex and my aunty Margo but this year I have decided I am going to try it. I will probably collapse but I’ll give it my best shot anyway. So the Cork city marathon in June is my goal. I love nothing more than pushing myself and trying new things so here it goes! If you want to join me .. Let me know! I haven’t ran in so long so I am going to do a “couch to 5k” first. I downloaded this app which unreal (by the way)! So good that it is addictive.. If you want to get involved just let me know – we could be running buddies! Here’s to feeling our fittest yet for 2017!
As a child we used to go on adventures the whole time. Nearly every weekend we would go for a walk, go for a spin or visit a little village even around Cork. They were some of my most favourite memories as a child. I think we are so lucky to live in Ireland and Cork especially with all of the lovely coastal villages, beeches, idyllic towns, woodlands and walkways surrounding us. So, I want to take advantage of this. I want Sophia to explore everything that Cork and surrounding areas has to offer. I want to try all of the best local places to eat, walk on the most beautiful walkways, find new woodlands and pretend to see even more teddybears enjoying their picnics and take many pictures along the way. There is nothing more than I love seeing her little face light up at every new experience she encounters. It scares me a little to think that she will be five this summer so I want to soak up as much as possible of her and her imagination the way it is now.
For my birthday Gary got me a beautiful present of a professional camera to take pictures with. Since I was little I have always loved photographs. Cramming all of my favourite photos into my Winnie The Pooh photo albums, organising them by specific genres and by preference. This year I really want to step away from my iPhone and begin taking more pictures with my camera. I want to learn more about photography. Capturing beautiful moments with a professional edge. I want to share all of this with you and more. That’s another goal – I want to share this and more with you all.
I have so many other small goals I want to achieve – like finding out about myself a little bit more, Be more productive, I want to give more to charity, read more, eat better and limit the amount of animal produce that I consume, I want to be calmer and more relaxed and I want to stop wasting time on things or people that do not add value to my life. Life is too short and I have had a habit of always thinking of what others thought of me but as I get older I have realised how pointless this is. Instead I want to spend that time showing appreciation to the people who add to my happiness, I want to love life more, be happier than I have ever been, learn more and do more.
So here’s hoping for 2017..
Leather Jacket: Zara old stock but similar here- Zara
Playsuit: Now on sale – Zara
Mock Croc Bag: Old stock but similar styles here – Zara
Boots: Now on sale – River Island